I decided to start a daily blog for my children to look back on in the future.
It was 3 years on New Year's Eve since I lost my Dad and 6 years since I lost my Mum. Only James remembers my mum and both James and Robert remember my dad, but little Ben never had the chance to meet either.
I remember so much from my childhood and the good and bad times that I experienced but I never really got a chance to talk to my parents about them and so to find out what they thought and felt. I believe that as you grow up, you are self absorbed that you really don't truly understand that your parents have feelings and emotions until you have fully grown up yourself.
I see James now at an age where I remember so much about everyday life and where I feel I began to truly develop my own personality, I can remember so many special occasions from Robert's age and my earliest memories are from Ben's age. But I also know there are so many things I've forgotten or that have faded over time and I will never be able to bring back.
This Blog will be my little bit piece to leave behind to my children - whether I continue it for 5 weeks, 5 months or 5 years, it will give them a small insight into what I saw and how I felt about everyday things - something that I would love to read from my parents but I know doesn't exist.
I remember one of my last conversations with my mum, when she was in hospital having been diagnosed with incurable cancer when she had accepted that there was only a short time left for her. She was so sad because she felt she had left nothing behind and I tried to console her that she'd had 4 children and we were her legacy, although I was the only one around (nothing against my brothers and sister, but I was the closest to our mum at the end as I was the youngest and lived nearest). It was horrible and something that will stay with me forever. The memories and possessions of my mum and dad are all that are left, therefore it is my responsibility to pass these on to the future generations of my family.
I hope that my little ramblings will mean that my thoughts and experiences can be read by my children, grandchildren and any future generations and the inclusion of photos and videos will help to show them what life is like in 2011.
These blogs, sometimes long and sometimes short, can also keep others I care about up to date with the goings on in our family and hopefully will serve to amuse occasionally too! So, to this end, please read and comment!
